I do fine while working alone but am nervous around others. Like today when I was running conduit. It was just a simple job apparently I should have done it in 15, but it took me almost an hour with someone constantly breathing down my neck. I'm 31 years old, and I don't know what other jobs I can do which won't put me in the same position as now. I think it might be a learning disability of some sort but I know if I get let go it's probably for the best.
No, when you learn how things are, it will take too long and the insight may be no longer useful to you.
If you get laid off, it is because of a number in a spreadsheet somewhere, not because it is for the best. Best has nothing to do with it although producing fast cheap crap work quickly, or competing with some other who merrily produces fast cheap crap work quickly seems to be the norm. Call it the MBA rule.
You are just a warm body reduced to some number in a spreadsheet. The higher level spreadsheets belong to financiers, the owners of the debt. So it's no longer true that you would work for an EC who works for the owner. The industry is plagued with DI's who work for the owner of the debt, who says give me faster cheaper crap, that's all I will pay for.
I've met a lot of apprentices who could not get field labor jobs and were stocking shelves at G Fox or JC Penny. There are not enough jobs for everyone who wants to be an electrician. It is a problem bigger than and impersonal to you.
If you were already a scammer, you would be expertly playing this game. The problem is with the true believers who believe that as you do your part correctly, you expect to give and get the same, that others in positions of power are also doing their part "correctly" or at least honestly and without intention to cause harm. I wish this were true that you count on others that you depend on to do their best as you expect yourself to do for them, but it is a delusion that collides with reality.
The reality is that if you see wrongdoing, the industry standard is to keep your mouth shut and fix it later if the customer want to pay again to fix the first mistake(s). (Deceptions being a common currency).
You are assuming they are good guys who know their stuff and you are at fault, assuming their criticisms to be well meaning and based in their honesty. Keep that view as long as possible but also hold the job, at least until you have something better to move to.
Try this, make it into a research project and try to discover for yourself the truth and falsity (lying) of your surrounding. Make a written log of all complaints, yours and theirs, daily. As you progress in this try to see which law applies that may be broken. The internet is a great equalizer.
Once you have some names in your log, try to look them up, house address. If your abuser who you hold in a position of esteem over you actually lives in some crappy apartment with the view out the living room window looks into the complex dumpster, you have to ask yourself what he really knows about pride in his work as a construction professional.
Look in your logbook. Are your coworkers actually producing work that you can say you are proud to be a part of, or do they work just to pay the tab at the local strip club and xhamster.
It should be obvious but never let them know you logged their names and their crimes in your book. This is an exercise to learn what you need to know. If you would ever show your logs to another, it would be to your attorney.
